I feel like a bomb is burst inside me.. my whole body is really hurt..
i try to get up and walk from it but then i just keep myself paused there, unable to do anything.
What i really can do up untill now is just watching you, hear the news, smile and wish you a happy life, pretend like it was all ok, but it's not. it's not ok..it's not.
it just make myself keep thinking why your life so easy while i'm not,
why you can have a happy life while i'm not, why i always live in the past while you live forward,
why i am so fragile while you are a flower that beautifully blossom in the garden...
am i that insignificant?
though...i'm happy for you, it just that..i want to have a life like you have too..
when the times comes, pls wish for me as i always wish for you...
Congratulation on your happy life, i will work hard like you had.
